Seeing Through Your Thoughts

Sketch of Lorraine trying to make toast in the kitchen without her glasses onAll these years later, I’m still surprised by, and reminded continually of, how much our thoughts shape our world.

 

Who would have thought an eye exam could mess so deeply with our thoughts.

If you’ve ever been frustrated that signs don’t look crispy and sharp,

or that fuzziness means you can’t see,

or less than 20/20 vision is failure …

welcome to The Club.

 

Let me say again … you can see far more than you realize.

 

But those thoughts of what clarity is supposed to mean creep in.

You want that “1 or 2, this or that” confidence when making decisions.

There’s a formula that will make everything crystal clear.

No next steps taken until you have that piece of paper formula that will give you exactly what you need to wipe out blurring doubt.

 

Crystal clear is a moment in time, not a state of being.

 

Think back to slipping on your glasses with a new prescription.

The floor slanted.

Objects appeared larger than life, or suddenly beyond reach.

Headaches were often part of the deal.

“Not to worry,” you’re told.

“That just your eyes getting used to the new prescription.”

(Or being wound up to a state of unrealistic expectations.)

There’s effort and adjustments put into getting used to a new level of awareness.

 

 

Two other very interesting realizations came to light during the journey.

Growing up I watched Little House On the Prairie.

There came a point where Mary’s sight was growing worse.

The thinking was it must be caused by all the studying in the dim light of the lantern.

But even with stronger and stronger glasses, her sight didn’t get any better.

Eventually, Mary went blind.

 

For YEARS, I thought my fate was sealed.

My glasses got stronger every year. Check.

I studied hard. Check.

Lighting wasn’t always the best. Check.

The conclusion was pretty obvious.

I. was. going. blind.

The only question was how soon.

I judged how well I could see through those thoughts.

 

Take night driving for example.

With bad eye sight, how could I possibly drive without good, strong sunlight?

Whenever possible, I avoided driving after dark.

 

Then I moved to a small northern town where the days are shorter.

If you’re going to do anything, you’re going to drive in the dark.

I remember thinking one night, driving in the dark is pretty nice.

Quiet. Still. Cozy. Peaceful.

Add in a full moon and it can be a near perfect moment.

And I felt relaxed. Comfortable.

Driving at night takes practice.

You have to learn to see differently than in the daylight.

(I’ve since lost that level of confidence from driving less at night.)

 

The most powerful discovery was understanding my reliance on glasses.

They were put on the moment I woke up and taken off just before going to sleep.

There were times I put my glasses on in the dark to hear better.

Or make a middle of the night trip to the bathroom.

If I was awake then I needed my glasses to function.

Right?

 

I turned seeing into black or white. Yes or no. On or off.

Turns out though, there’s a BIG grey area in between.

 

I challenged myself.

How much was I capable of accomplishing from the realm of blurriness.

Quite a bit.

Not only could I do the whole routine and end up dressed,

I could make toast and coffee, and eat breakfast.

Even walk down the street.

While working on the computer was a bit difficult (more like impatient),

watching TV was decently possible by purposefully paying attention to breathing and relaxing.

Blurriness isn’t a show stopper for taking steps or moving forward.

 

Have I mentioned before how far more capable you are than your thoughts lead you to believe?

 

Now I want you to know I’m all for eye health.

Don’t ignore issues.

Remember there’s more to it than meets the eye.

Get curious. Ask questions.

See what else might be in play.

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Lorraine

Not quite a crazy cat lady (yet?) – Lorraine’s insatiable curiosity of life leads her to explore, question and push beyond the box. A self-professed “left-brained creative big picture idea” type, she has an intuitive knack for seeing possibility everywhere and in everyone, and is a moth-to-flame for being part of making that possibility come true.

2 Comments

  1. Pearl on March 17, 2018 at 1:43 pm

    Fascinating, as always. 🙂

    Hugs!

    • Lorraine on March 20, 2018 at 6:11 pm

      Thanks Pearl. Always appreciate knowing you’re out there reading.

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