Here I thought this little website was a mere mote of cyberspace dust, flying far below the radar as an unworthy target for hackers to seek out when so many other popular sites exist.
With a sudden surge in repeated messages about website security, I figured this is probably a sign and installed a couple of security plugins here on FollowYourLight.com.
Was I in for a shock.
A mere mote is found rather easily and open for attack where intent and technology find their way into the same hands.
Being aware of what’s going on has made these past few weeks a tad stressful.
Some survival protection thing triggered and the geek brain fell straight into control-mode-bordering-on-obsession.
There had to be a way to figure out how these senseless attacks could be thwarted and regain the upper hand.
(Conclusion – Attacks are managed, not beaten.)
I’ve lost count of how many times the plugins were nearly removed or at least their notifications turned off.
Mornings would be far more pleasant without emails indicating 160 attempts overnight to break into the website or hack my password.
And there would be far less frustration not wondering who would want to do such things and why.
Ignorance would be bliss.
What you don’t know, doesn’t happen. Right?
You could merrily trundle along again without everything to worry about.
Because once you know, you can’t unknow.
You might rant for a moment and move on.
Or push it off to the edge to make less important.
But what’s underneath doesn’t change – you still know.
Dealing with my reaction to the hacker attacks also forced me to notice where else I turning a was blind eye.
Or at least fooling myself into trying.
Like avoiding animal abuse stories, especially involving a cat.
The painful heart-wrenching discomfort of these stories linger long after I’m done reading.
Of late though, the inner pokes to look once in a while won’t stop.
Or the questioning of where I could help make a difference for so many cats needing help in so many ways.
How can there possibly be a way to make sense of so much that is just plain wrong?
Bad things happen. All the time.
Cyclones, droughts, tornadoes, floods, earthquakes, mudslides – all part and parcel of living on a planet.
Cyber attacks, war, theft, oppression, abuse, exploitation – all part and parcel of living with other humans.
Not too big a leap is needed to conclude the world is heading ever more directly towards hell in a handbag.
Turning off the news doesn’t make them go away.
The anger and negativity streaming from others is just as energy draining.
Tackling all the issues is far beyond what any single person can handle, let alone think about.
There seems to be far greater numbers of people showing up on the other side of bad stuff to help put the pieces back together.
Or work to ensure the bad and the wrong doesn’t happen again.
They write programs to stop hackers.
They collect clothes for tornado victims or lend a hand in rebuilding.
They crawl under porches on a cold winter night to rescue pregnant cats.
They spread the word through their networks so others can know too.
They say a prayer.
Bad can just be more bad stuff and you go on with life.
Or bad can create good by helping to see more clearly where you don’t care, what you fear, where you want to turn away, where you draw the line and even where you’re poked to get involved or take a stand.
Awareness, not ignorance, is where true bliss comes from, and in the knowing and being more fully who you really are.
There will be a next time something makes you boiling mad or painfully cuts you to the core.
Use those situations to look for what you can learn about yourself.
Look for what part of you is wanting to be expressed.
Hacker attacks tell me what I value and respect in the work of others and relationships.
Animal abuse stories, for starters, resonate against my beliefs valuing and respecting all of Life.
When geek brain settles down I have no desire to fight the hackers, but I do have a strong pull to make more of a difference for cats.
The important thing to know is we don’t need to do everything. We aren’t meant to do everything.
We just have to show up and be our part full out.
Sometimes that looks big, scary and audacious while at other times simply acknowledging you know and you care is enough.
Being your true self will guide the way.
Because when we all show up together, amazing shift can happen.
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Crazy for cats and potatoes, Lorraine's insatiable curiosity of Life leads her to question, explore and push beyond the box. A self-professed "left-brained creative big picture" type, she has an intuitive knack for seeing beyond and beneath first appearances while at the same time nerding out on the details. Most of all she sees and holds others in their highest until they can see it for themselves.